re discover, re vamp re re re Karee

 a change would do me good. 

tht song lingers. 

that long winding needy annoying song both lovely and catchy hits me well.

the best of it all is i am using the same old me, even my clothes arent new. 

just the feeling, the need to revamp, redo, recreat a new version karee

while still keeping abreast the same old karee me.

not curry mee.

just karee me.

lalala

 the year is 2021.

survived a minor stroke in the brain, a passing of my beloved abah, two eye operation and a fistula procedure for preparation should i need dialysis.

above all that, i took a year off non paid and another 6 months taking care of mama. 

contemplating, at one point whether i should just quit. 

give in. give it all up as raise my white flag and just loose hope.

but i kept going, from a day at a time, i crawled back, to try to stand still, stand tall. 

its not like wht it use to. 

but its a survival

and i am thriving, 

i must succeed. 

i am back to giving. 

work and routine are slowly seeping in. Triumph and tragedy are still what is making this earth move. 

and so shall i

i breath, inhale and exhale

as i whisper, 

"welcome back karee, welcome back." 

   

Move along now

 

Ahead. No turning back. Not now , not even ever.

I have had my moments of pausing, laidbdown, rest, feeling beaten. As much as developing is the key in front of me, so is deteriorating. 

Certain days i keep holding high, proud, positively certain, its another day i shall and will go thru this. 

Other days, im just tired

Lets talk about me for a second

 I try mot to believe if there is such a thing called writer’s block, bit as i typing i must admit, something is holding me back.

It could be the fact that the moment has passed. And i dont  have the drive to tell it all again. 

However now, more than ever, i need to di this. To tell my story. Story-tell as it is. Ok i need a lappy to blog. I am two hands to type on ketboard type of girl. Next week im bringing my lappy

Lalalalalappy

Back to blogging

 Wow. Wow. Wow. 

Its been a while. Im not even sure if i am blogging on my right blogspot.

Loads has happened. Did not happened. Both planned and unplanned. Damn i still so foreign typing this way. 

I rested. Abah rested in peace. Even work i decided to give it a rest. For a year and a half, rest was my middle name and Alhamdulilah that was all i needed 

I use to have a bloggspot curry_n_crap but im not sure if this links it directly there. Ah well. Lets publish this entry and see wherebit goes. So welcome (to myself) home Karee. 

Lalalalala